“To torture a man you have to know his pleasures.”
Master is working insanely unreasonable hours lately. This leaves very little (read: zero) time for anything fun. I’m making the most of it by throwing myself into what I DO have, which is cooking and cleaning and giving body massages and masturbation and offering blow jobs. And assuring Him that I am perfectly fine without being beaten even as I secretly writhe in unscratched-itch discomfort.
And I am not whining or complaining about it, either. (Except here right now because I can.)
What I find is that the longer I go between beatings, the more I tend to want to stir up trouble in other places. Unfortunately, this lends credence to Master’s theory that I “need the bitch beaten out of me”.
I so hate it when He’s right.
But since I cannot have the bitch beated out of me, I’m going to wistfully go over past moments of being beated beyond the bitch and into the zenful state of cunthood. I’ll call this a loverly trip down torture lane.
Two of the most popular search phrases that lead people here to Under His Hand are “breast torture” and “cunt/pussy torture”. This pleases me. I like to know that other perverts are googling torture methods. It makes me feel a tiny bit less freakish. Or, at least, a little less alone in my freakishness. Welcome fellow freaks! Take off your coat and stay awhile. :-)
It surprises me, really, to read that people so freely search for “torture”. As often as I hear that people won’t even use the word “beat” because of the negative connotations attached, I’m just -pleasantly- surprised. I hear “he touches me in such a manner as to cause moments of intense sensation that we mutually enjoy”. Well – fuck that. He beats me. I am not interested in romanticizing it or drawing balloon hearts around what it is that we do. He beats and I get beaten.
Now torture as a descriptive word might be pushing the envelope. Generally when speaking of torture methods, one pulls up mental images of medievel devices that ultimately end in a death of a gruesome and bloody, painful manner. I suppose if I’m going to be so vehemently against the romanticization of being “beaten” I should be equally opposed to romanticizing torture. But I’m not, cuz sometimes, “beaten” and “hurt” simply do not describe what I feel at the time of the particular torture. Maybe torture isn’t exactly it either, but it’s damn close enough.
In all honesty, some of His methods ARE classified as torturous. Just.. mildly. And perhaps it only falls under the “mild” category because I’m too damn willing to participate. Were 95% of these things done to an unwilling woman, she’d claim, and rightly so, that she’d been tortured. So, if we’re to isolate the actions from the consent, torture as a label fits pretty well.
That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
After watching that video yesterday, it occurred to me (and not for the first time) that one masochist’s pleasure is another’s torture. Behind the cut are some of my favorite breast and cunt torture moments of the last few months. Most are pictures I have posted before so probably nothing new to you regular folks. :-)
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Saturday October 25th, 2008 12:17pm
Ironic.
Those are my favorites, too.
However, I refuse to pay to see you do sexual things nude.
It goes against my sole criterion of the internet, which is never paying for porn…no matter how cute.
Especially not when I could get it for free and then distribute it myself for free.
Nice cunt, though, cunt.
Hey – we all gotta do what we gotta do.
Wow I really like those pictures. So about the whole stiring things up to try to get some attention or whatever reaction .. yeah I think my sister- wife and I can understand. We have had His mother in town from Texas for a week and there has been like no time for anything and well sex has been a no go. Her dealing with our poly situation was a bit akward – Im sure laying the whole BDSM thing in her lap would have been a bad idea lol .So I feel ya there but for different reasons . I hope it doesnt last long.
My parents were here for a week last month too. I enjoyed the visit but holy hell was I horny. :D
Oy! Some fun times there. By the way, thanks…Daddy surprised me with a clothing addition when we were on our way to dinner and a Haunted House with (‘nilla) friends. Tack bra inserts! You’re not kidding, those things can suck – and they left my ass covered in blood when he set them upon me and caned them.
I’m sorry that your master’s working so much. Hopefully things’ll calm down soon and your bitch can be beaten out again!
Hee! I love it when people get tack bras. Tell me more about it! Can I friend you on lj?
Oh, absolutely! There’s just as much whining, and talk of my four-year-old and pets as there is S&M (and I don’t use tags at all, really), but I lust after new readers, LOL. I keep it private due to old drama, but I long for conversation there.
The tack bra itself…well, the first time I wore it, I wore it for 8 hours. It was bad, but not too bad – my boobs aren’t very sensitive. I learned really quickly not to bother attempting to adjust it, though! It was great fun being in a large crowd of ‘nillas with some kink going on, too. Putting kidlet to bed that night was not so much fun.
I’ll add ya now – I would’ve long ago, but didn’t know if you still read since you post here now. :)
I’m Ellen, btw.
I too, like the straight forward use of the word “beat” (and derivatives like “beaten”). I do remember going to a Halloween party once — dressed as an egg. The husband (at that time) wore a chef’s costume. The “line” was that I was the one who “got beaten…” He was freaked out by the whole deal (poor vanilla fellow that he was), but did his usual well-behaved thing.
Hope the time stresses let up soon…
hugs, swan
See, this is so different from those “you owe me” posts you were making before. I think you’ve like gone up several notches on the “Good influence on pet” scale that my Owner seems to keep.
;)
It’s always a pleasure reading your insights
And I believe that torture and beatings shouldn’t be romanticized…but I understand that when there is a distinct level of consent, it’s a lot different than if there isn’t any consent at all.
I used to loathe words like “beat”, or even “whip”. Now they turn me on. Master is much the same, he used to be so hard up as to insist upon saying “discipline” instead of “punishment”. I’m glad we’ve since gotten past those hang ups and let ourselves be US.
Still, there is little quite as entertaining as looking at statcounter to see the (incredibly odd) keywords people use to get to my site. LOL I’m sure some of them run away screaming in terror, considering what they were looking for when they clicked on me. *snickers*
If one could extract military secrets using these methods, then it is irrelevant whether they make any specific masochist cum. At that point, they are considered torture.
Just my semi Humble Opinion.
“Beaten” is one of my favorit words. :)
Really enjoyed seeing the pictures again!
Here’s an “e” to go with “favorit” in my previous comment.
The “Ring of pain” image with your Master’s cock entering you is always my favorite! [she says with fangirl gushiness]
The bloody one sets off my squick-o-meter. shivers
I like the ring of pain one too. Now if I could just figure out how to get that effect without the pinchy ouchy clips…