“The pain passes, but the beauty remains.”
This is pretty much going to be pictures more than words. I don’t really know what to say about it all, to be honest.
This is an excellent example of why I don’t have, and don’t want, a safeword. Had I had one, I would have used it from the first squeeze. The pain was immense, overwhelming, exquisite. Had I had the option to end it, I would have taken it. I didn’t believe that I could take it.
But he did. He believed that not only could I, that I needed to.
Sometimes the mantra of “I’m not going to die” is the only thing that gets me through. That’s all I have to lean on and all I have to pull strength from.
I would miss out on so many things, so many realizations, so much ultimate pleasure, if I were given the power to stop it before he wanted it to stop. But worse than what I would miss out on? Is what HE would miss out on, and all because I don’t have the faith in me that he does.
There wasn’t a moment that he didn’t enjoy. From the anticipation of it to the climactic ending, he was thoroughly blissful, happy, powerful. I’d hate to have woken up this morning knowing that I had put even the slightest damper on that for him.
He enjoyed the dance. What bigger gift can I give him?
A short 5 minute clip is up at the clip store.
Pictures are behind the cut simply because there are so many of them.
I needed the gag. I knew I wasn’t going to be able to stay quiet.
Tied up.
He tied my hair so I wouldn’t be able to bend at the waist.
Punching was pretty fucking ouchie.
I liked how this picture showed his fingerprints. Indicative of how hard he was squeezing.
The cane was so much more painful than it looked. It was excruciating.
Just a little blood here and there.
The last three? Master’s idea of aftercare. *snicker*
I think in this case I was more turned on by the fact that he was so turned on by it. It’s weird huh? Sometimes he gets that same clinical sort of studying when he’s aware of how I react to pain, it’s rare though that I can step out of things and see how much HE gets turned on by causing me pain.
Sadists are funny creatures. Scary enigmas.
I’m sore today, of course. But there is still a disappointing lack of marks. Scabs and scratches but nothing indicative of how badly it hurt. I hate that, too. I want proof of my suffering dammit. Ah well. I’m feeling the proof anyway. :-)
~cunt
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Saturday January 19th, 2008 2:03pm
You are sooooo much braver than me, but then I never would have admitted the want to hurt like that in the first place. good girl….well done!
OMG…you are so awesome. i can’t make it 10 minutes in my tack bra… you rock kaya :)
a crude as it looks, I’m thinking I might have to save up so and get me one!! It’s just so pretty!!
How much are you selling them for?
Kaya,
It looks like he had a lot of fun. Hopefully you had some fun as well. I have to agree with you, for you, safe words would just lessen the depth and enjoyment that the both of you get from your slavery. I wonder sometimes if people who have safewords and use them are short changing themselves. Yet, everyone is different and some submissives/slaves may very well be able to use them only when they’ve truly reached the end of their capacity.
So, I gotta ask. How many times did you cum? ;)
dave
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaayum. I am a sadist – similiar to your master, I’d bet. Just looking at those pics makes me miss having a female sub – and the pics are making me extremely wet and horny!!
Good job – to both of you. It looks extremely enjoyable!
Kaya, you are something else, the pictures are amazing.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
*winces*
Wow. That’s really all I have to say.
Wow.
*hugs*
Hey Kaya,
Again…OUCH!!! i was in pain just looking at the photos. i showed Master your sight on Friday (i wasn’t going to for fear he’d like the tack bra) well He LOVES the tack bra, sends me shiverssssssss…. i’m not a pain slut (Master says YET) but He’s working on it :-0
I think the next time your going to be tacked, stick some numbing lotion on the tips of those sharp ass needles, hehehe
s bootsie
I get sad too when there isn’t proof of my suffering (smiles) it’s always fun to see the bruises. The pictures are amazing and a real insepration!
Great pics!!! I am glad that you two both enjoyed it so much.
Is it safe to hug you yet? And is the cat still attacking you?
i probably should have waited to read this entry until my piercings have stopped hurting…those pictures just made them hurt worse…although, i have to admit, the pictures of your Master’s ‘aftercare’ look DELICIOUS, and i miss that, since i can’t have that while i am healing.
Glad you made it through the day!1
slave2JS
Haven’t been here for awhile so catching up…Hope you had a great birthday and that you saw my Happy Birthday comment to you on danaes birthday post to you..Poor poor boobies..*kisses them better* *G*
Yowch, girl! You are so much braver than I could ever be! Looking at those pictures makes me glad that D gets squicked out by needles and piercing play of any kind, but also a little envious! To trust your master so absolutely, I wish I had that level of trust in my partner!
I’m sold, making one of these as soon as the next bdsm arts and crafts day arrives. Thanks (as always) for the inspiration.
Best to you,
magdalena
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Holy crap, kaya. That looks unbelievably painful, and to read your take on taking it is really illuminating. Thank you. My husband and I had a Deep Conversation this morning in which we agreed to take baby steps, and looking at your pictures? Glad we agreed to restart things slooooowly.
I’m told that warm compresses help more than squeezing and mashing, as far as aftercare goes. :)
Seeker
I think this is one of the rare occassions where your discussions of safe words, or lack there of, is more of a selling point to me than the pictures.
I would miss out on so many things, so many realizations, so much ultimate pleasure, if I were given the power to stop it before he wanted it to stop. But worse than what I would miss out on? Is what HE would miss out on, and all because I don’t have the faith in me that he does.
This is a beautiful declaration, sweetie. It really goes back to the concept of giving up the world just because he asked. And that turns me on more than any picture of pain.
Um… I was gonna ask if you got my email, but honestly, if you haven’t checked your mail for a while… I *totally* understand!
Yikes! *winces*
I guess you didn’t see my comment ’bout the curtain clips? If so, hide it! *grins*
Cool for you girl. Welcome back.
it looks amazing. *sigh*
i’ve been away for the past 5 days, and Sir seems .. not reluctant, just.. busy. i know how busy is. and busy sucks balls. relaxing is nice, but does not ususally involve me getting hurt. but Him zoning out. still, nice to see you hurting! Sir will probably be whonthese pics later. my tackbra has been in a box for quite a while. maybe He’ll bring it out?
then again, i’m such a pain-wimp these days, i feel like a totl loser. He hurt me some yesterday, and i treid So hard not to whimper and gasp, but just couldn’t. i did mananage not to move away. at all. ow.
does getting thinner come at the cost of losing your pain threshold?
~melly,
a slave in His house
hello kaya,
well, it’s still techinally march and ask question month..lol….
but i was unsure where to post this for you, because it covers a few different areas…
though it is all about the tack bra…which by the way, looks amazing on you, so yummy and yet ouchie at the same time.
well,you recently mentioned reading other blogs and using ideas for Y/your play…. my Sir, just did the same after reading your blog. being the Sadist He is, He really enjoyed the delicious torment Your Master put you through with the tack bra…..
so, in all fairness,i must confess are W/we not just “L/lurkers” to your blog anylonger, but have taken an idea from you too, lol.
yes, i now have tack inserts for my bra,ugh !…(and yummy,grins)
and to take this strict sensation a bit further; after an intense session of wearing the tack bra for the first time, my Sir suggested (think it was more like a suggested/command,grins)…that i make something to make wearing panties more fun..(for the Sadist’s pleasure of course,lol)
after much searching, i couldn’t find one reference to any one’s exploring and/or adventures with such.
so, like the tack bra,with His instructions, one was made.
it’s everything you can image with the bra, and more. one hellova ouchie pain and pleasure filled sensation, and i have already added the tack bra and panties to my list of ultimate “love/hate” toys, lol.
sorry, to have rambled on here.
i just wanted to share this with you, since the idea was “born” form your posting. and to also say thank you to you and Your Master, for sharing bits and pieces of Y/your L/lives here with U/us.
“hugs”
pleasure
sorry, in proof reading, i mistakenly hit “add comment” before asking my question.
kaya, do you have a tack pantie ? and if so, “g’s”, does the lil masochist in you enjoy wearing it for the Sadist’s pleasure ?
and if the answer is no, would you like too ?
thanks again,
hugs,
pleasure