Mini-update
You might be wondering why I didn’t post any Titty Torture Thursday pictures. And I’ve been given a task to do today that I probably won’t post pictures of either. Because, um, I seem to have misplaced Master’s camera. The last time I had it, I left it on the coffee table because I was taking pictures of the kittens and the kids and now, it’s gone.
I’d been avoiding panicking. I mean, it *has* to turn up right? It didn’t grow legs and walk out the door, ffs. Today I’m going to really search. I’m going to look in all those places that things should never be in. Like the freezer, the dryer, in cupboards, dresser drawers. If I don’t have it by tonight, I’ll give in to the panic.
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When I talked to Master on the phone yesterday, He sounded so down. The job is more complicated then anyone thought it would be, the customer is not happy and He’s getting the brunt of that. It just kills me to be here and so helpless, useless to Him. My priority is to make sure He’s as happy/comfortable/pleased/content as possible and He’s none of those things. I just hate this.
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The kids are all about 3 seconds away from death. Seriously. They’re bored with *everything* and riding the very last frayed nerve that I have. My son… oh my God… he’s going to be the first to go. You know when they get in that state of boredom where screaming is fun? Or playing drums on the coffee table AND screaming is fun? And I’m in that state of annoyance where even the sound of him breathing pisses me off. Yeah. I’m going to lock myself in my room for *their* safety.
The middle girl has been on my shit list since she called me a bitch the other day. Her excuse, of course, is that I wasn’t supposed to have heard it. Somehow she expects me to say “oh well, if I wasn’t *supposed* to hear it, that’s okay then.” Um, no. I’m being sure to be extra bitchy so she gets a nice full taste of what a bitch for a mom is really like. And I’m just vindictive enough to enjoy it, too.
The oldest is like velcro. Like pure_blue told me the other day, they call them suppository babies. If I stopped too fast, she’d go two inches up my ass. She’s at least not annoying me really, except it’s really difficult to be perverted or to masturbate when she’s RIGHT THERE ALL THE TIME!
September 1st is the first day of school. The countdown is on.
I’m done shopping, done registering, done done done. I haven’t done a total because honestly, I don’t even want to know. It’s more than it should be, that’s all I know. Free education my *ass*. I’ll have to give a total to Master at some point and I’m not even looking forward to that. No matter how much they may need the stuff, it’s still a shock to the ol bank account.
There’s something going on with my middle kid’s eyeball. She’d been complaining of blurred vision just in the left eye for a little while now. So I took her to the eye doctor, who runs through the standard vision tests, and even dilated her eyes. The doc then sends my kid out of the room so she can talk to me. She said “well, her vision is perfect. So she’s either faking or there is something else going on.”
We get into a pretty long discussion on whether or not my kid would fake this. My initial gut reaction is no. No way. Having to wear glasses in 8th grade isn’t cool. And if she was faking, I don’t think she’d just pick one eye to be messed up. It doesn’t make any sense.
So she starts asking me about any injuries. There were no injuries to the eye itself, at least none that I know about. Then she asks me about head injuries. And I said that there weren’t any that needed a doctors care but that there had been two incidents within a short period of time where she’d fallen and smacked the back of her head pretty hard. The doc proceeds to tell me that maybe the two incidents by themselves weren’t serious, but the two together could have been enough to have caused this bit of “brain damage”.
Nobody ever wants to hear ‘brain damage’ and ‘your child’ in the same sentence. She saw the look on my face and she was quick to reassure me. Even if it is that, and she’s not saying it is, but if it is, the only damage she seems to have is a slightly blurred left eye so it’s nothing to be overly concerned about.
Except I am. Now, I’m hoping like hell that she’s faking! Of course I asked my daughter if she was faking and she got very offended at the thought, but would she admit it? I don’t know. Anyway, we go back next week for another test, one that couldn’t be done then because her eyes were already dilated. It’s a field vision test to see if her peripheral vision is affected, which the doc thought, would indicate the damage. If she passes that test okay, then her eyes are fine. If she doesn’t, the next step is a neurologist to see what’s going on in her head.
She better be faking. That’s all I can say.
I guess that’s it for my mini-update. I’m off to do wonderful chores and tasks and walks! Woohoo!
Except for another couple of cat pictures.
Here’s Dusty, keeping anyone from getting any food out of the refrigerator. Doesn’t he look evil??
But then you catch him doing that. He’s bigger than his mother, ten times as big as the kittens and meaner than a snake but he never misses a chance to suck him some milk. It reminds me of that line in Major Payne, “pop yo titty out his mouth and let the boy grow up!”
(yes, they knock all the movies off the bottom shelf so they can play in the ‘jungle gym’)
:D
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Uncategorized | kaya | 
Friday August 11th, 2006 11:54am
wow…. I’ve never known a momma cat to let her babe keep suckling at THAT size and age. She must really love being a momma cat.
School is almost here, just breath, a few more weeks, you can do it!
What are you planning on doing for your first day at home alone, without the kids? Got any celebratory plans?
Yeah, I don’t know if momma-cat likes her babes that much or is just too tired to fight them off..lol. I sure understand that feeling.
Celebratory plans. Hmmm. It might just coincide with Master coming home so that’s a celebration to look forward to. :)
You know.. every dieting woman should have a Dusty. You could make a fortune. I can see it now. “the Dusty Diet!”
Here’s a thought on the whole “My priority is to make sure He’s as happy/comfortable/pleased/content as possible” and hating that you can’t make sure he is. i think right now, probably the last thing he wants to hear, what anyone wants to hear in that situation, is that there’s grief on the home front. At least now he has the reassurance that all at home is well, that you are (by virtue of being boss by proxy) holding all down, and that you are safe and well (if not terribly happy). And that is going to be far more powerful and supportive for him than maybe you realise right now – knowing that he has that safe place to go back to, *home*, is gonna be what will get him through this shit with the client.
*huggggggggggggsssssss tight(WI)*
keth
xx
hhmmmf… that’s not my normal pic!!! *sulks and does another one so its got her normal pic on*
Yep, and that’s what I try to do. But I’d give just about anything to be able to suck the stress right out of His cock for Him. :D
Please keep us updated on your daughters eye! Wow I can understand why you are hoping she is faking it.
The kitty cats are so cute! :)
I will, and thank you. :)
eyes
I’m sorry to hear of your daughter’s eye trouble. I have had problems with my eyes too. I wear glasses and at my last eye exam I found out I have cataracts in one eye (at the ripe old age of 30). This was found out after lots of testing to see why I was unable to see 20/20 regardless of the corrective lenses. I had my last exam at an “eye doctor school”. It was the most thorough exam I have ever had, at least 2 hours one on one with the doctor. The point of my rambling is.. maybe check out one of the “eye doctor school” clinics if there are any near you. The price was right too, not much at all.
Re: eyes
Thats a great suggestion and one I’ll keep in mind, depending on how this next test turns out.
Cataracts at 30. Damn. I’m so sorry. :(
Responding to…
Part 3) Laughing and SO glad I do not have kids. Mothers rock.
Part 4) God, that sounds so scary with your daughter’s eye. I am sure you are both worried. I hope she is ok!
Part 5) LOVED the kitty pictues, as always!
Thank you. :)
that feeding kitten picture is so cute. like it should be on one of those uber-cute websites.
I do love me some kittens. :)
I can understand that you are hoping she is just faking it. Have you thought of getting a second opinion?
The kitties are soooooo cute!!!
I’m waiting to see how this next test turns out before I get a second opinion. If she passes the test and this doc says there is nothing wrong and my kid still insists something is wrong… then I’ll start calling around.
Kids! If it isn’t one thing, it’s another.
lol that second picture is absolutely adorable.
Heh. I thought so too. Poor mom. :)
awww cute kitties :o)
Thanks! You want one?? :D
RE: eye stuff
Remember no matter what it turns out to be I am here for you if you need to cry yell or scream. Please beg to have me added to your im when you can do it again, I know you have to wait but when its up let me know ok?
Thanks and big hugs
Hana
Re: eye stuff
Thank you so much, Hana. You are so sweet. I will let you know when I can add anyone again. So far, it’s still the 6 month ban though :(
*hugs* thank you for being such a good friend.
Re: eye stuff
You remind me of a firend I use to have, we drifted apart about a year ago. Since than I havent had any lifestyle girl friends that I would confide in. Besides this is what friends do SILLY
Hana
well – you know me – always with the suggestions -S- so here are a bunch for any pocket book to keep them busy (and worn out) for a few days :)
0=stuff you already have ie free
$=a little money and $$ = much money
A few hours at the local library = 0
Zoo $
- Chores around the house w/a treat at the end $
- $1.00 Theater or a matinee $
- Picnic at the local park = 0
-Amusment park $$
- Walk at Local dog park = 0
-Story Time = 0 (dictionary and tharasus) – having each kid sit (x amout of time) and write a story/poem on (you pick the topic) then sharing – since some of the sound pretty good already install the rule that they have to use x number of new words from the dictionary or that certain words are banned such as ‘good’ ‘bad’ common every day words that will make then have to search for new ones to describe something.
-Cooking day = 0 – teaching them to make some grand dinner that dad likes and they can cook it for him one night when he is home (that should get them all involved)
-A Craft Day = 0 – maybe turning old clothes into pillows – it’s easy and can be done by hand by cutting material into 2 identical squares (an old shirt that is still pretty but has a stain or something) sewing the 2 squares together and stuffing it with the remainder of the item or another old whatever. Or some other craft that may already be your hobbie :)
Hope you find some of thoses useful :)
You must be a kindergarten teacher. :)
Thank you very much. I was actually going to do the picnic one when Grandma called and wanted them all. Can’t pass up grandma! But I’ll keep them all in mind.
:) child care, teen counseling, all that kind of stuff :)
Yeaaaaa for grandma … hehe more ideas for while they are away after all the cleaning and such you have done:
Treat Yourself:
-Bubble bath with a wine glass of your favorite jucie or whatever
-Long warm shower in the early morning or cool in the afternoon
-if allowed – buy a pack of strwbeeries and 1pk of chocolate morsels – melt Less then 1/2 the bag for about 30 seconds (no more then maybe 40 sec depending on your nuke)just enough to melt them then relax and dip ummmmm – your own chocolate covered strawbeeries. OR juts the strawbeeries if chocolate is not allowed.
-take yourself and the dog for a walk and spend some time reading outside in a nice place (if allowed)
-relax on the front porch and read/craft/sleep/
by the way…my dad is away for a night and 2 days and my mom was pouting. I say to her ‘there is someone on my journal whose husband works away for several days – the day before he was supposed to come home asked if she had her chores done … recounted your confusion about it being the wrong question and so on’ (grins…) My mom said “chores?” in a surprised tone of voice and a wrinkle of her nose. “He gives her chores? What is that, that’s strange.” (hehe) I just played dumb as said “don’t you want dad to give you chores when he’s away – you know, another form of connection?” (hehe) she wrinkled her nose and said in a child like voice “nooo” lol. If she only knew lol.
ohh hunny… the eye thing is scary I know… and I hope she is faking too… darn kids…
if you need a referral to a great eye doc in Milwaukee.. let me know.. all 3 of our lil ones have issues with their eyes and they see the top guy in the State… if it comes to her needing more I mean… just a lil info. I know Miltown isn’t close for you… but he is truly the best..
*kisses* for you and hugs too :)
Thank you so much. We’ll see how this next test turns out and go from there.
*hugs*
lol.. well you could just prop your foot on me if that would help. :)
thanks for the offer, kaya **smiles** am doing a bit better today and finding the words of wisdom that Keth sent you to be helpful for me too as I also wish I could help make life easier for my Master when he is going through such a rough time. It is hard to know that all he wants from me right now is to back off and leave him in peace until he gets his world back to normal again.
But Keth is right (as usual), we can help our Masters by not adding worries about how we are doing to everything else on their plate. I really needed that perspective.
And I love the kitty holding the refrigerator door shut picture. I hope you don’t mind but I plan to print that one and put it on my refrigerator door as I expect it will make me smile each time I see it.
His angel
keth is smart lady. :)
And I don’t mind a bit if you hang Dusty on your refrigerator too.
Thanks, sweety.
whoops, forgot something important, kaya. re: your daughter, I would tend to think she is not faking it as I remember the struggle I had when I first began going to the doctors to prove that something was wrong with me … took a year’s worth of testing to get the neurologist to finally acknowledge (after every test came back abnormal) that something physical/neurological was indeed wrong with me.
I’ve had to learn a decent amount about brain damage as I’ve struggled with this and while I am far from an expert of any type on these things, from everything I have read I do believe that damage to the brain can be cumulative as the doctor said.
The other side of the coin (speaking from personal experience) is that even though the words “brain damage” are scary, it isn’t the end of the world either. There are lots of unused parts of our brain and, especially when the damage is minor, they can sometimes over time take over the function of the damaged part and at least some of the function that has been lost can be restored.
I work every day to continually force my brain to keep creating new connections to make up for what I have lost to brain atrophy so that I can keep functioning at as high of a level as possible.
**hugs**
His angel
Yep, I agree. I don’t think she’s faking it either. I’ll be sure to let you know how it turns out.
Not to say that your daughter is, but you’d be surprised at how many kids fake it for glasses. They weren’t cool when I was a kid, but now? Hell, even Nike makes glasses and the kids love them.
I worked for an Optometrist for a number of years, and it’s like the come in with this really vague complaint..headaches normally. Then, during the eye exam everything is “a big blur”. The way half of them turned out, the eye test would show that they should be legally blind! haha.
Our doctor always caught them, though, because the particular prescription changed, as in “Better one or two?” and the child would say “two” the first time…then “one” the second time.
If your doc didn’t catch her doing that…then it would pay to look further into it. :/
I love the kitten pics! I’ve got a new kitten of my own, and he’s fucking insane. :)
~turkey baster girl
I know alot of kids do and I’m not 100% certain that she’s not. This is one of those tough spots about parenting, you know? What do you do?
If she passes this next test and the doc says there is nothing wrong… who do I believe?
Gah! Kids!
Brain Damage
My girl is diabetic, about 18 months ago, she made a near-fatal mistake with her insulin dosage and went into a coma — when she emerged from the coma, it was evident that she had brain damage.
A year and a half later and she’s now able to walk, talk and chew gum at the same time, but there *are* problems. Her balance, emotional control, eyesight, taste and smell are all affected.
You need to see a neurologist, yes… BUT Get her to a neuro-optometrist. Brain damage is a hard thing to quantify, and should be taken very seriously.
Now, having said that, let me ‘splain my encounters w/ a neurologist….
1000 years ago, the height of medical science gave us the shaman, or witchdoctor. He’d dress you up in ceremonious mask and gown, light noxious, fuming incense and dance around you chanting some arcane mumbo-jumbo all the while whacking you with a stick.
Now, after a millenium of progress we have the neurologist, who dresses you up in a hospital gown, possibly with an oxygen mask, and some fuming noxious chemicals called a “breathing treatment”, all the while walking around you chanting some arcane mumbo-jumbo into a digital recorder all the while whacking you with a rubber mallet. Ah.. progress! ;)
When he was finished examining Cat, he proudly proclaimed: “She has encephalopathy.”
”And that means?”
”There’s something wrong with her brain”.
”No kidding, Doc? Hell I could’ve told you that!?”
A neuro-optometrist may be able to determine exactly what’s wrong, and clue you into what therapies may help the situation. Trust me on this, over the past 18 months, we’ve been to more: Neurologists, neuro-optometrists, phyiatrists, endocrinologist, physicians, optricians, optometrists, therapists and god-knows how many other “ists” and “uns”, than I care to remember.
Ever notice that people in the medical fields are either “ists”, (psychiatrist, gynecologist, optometrist), or “uns”, (surgeon, obsterician, physician)? I wonder if the “uns” and the “ists” have their own golfing leagues…
Re: Brain Damage
I’m so glad your girl is getting better. What a scary thing to experience.
Thanks for the heads up. It’s much appreciated. That’s a whole lotta ists and uns to think about.
Nana…Nana…Boo Boo
Not that I’m rubbing it in or anything…but my kids started school on Monday… Can you hear that??…ssshhh …listen…what? You can’t hear anything?…You mean there is quiet and solitude???
Life is good…
Re: Nana…Nana…Boo Boo
Hahaha! You made me spit out my diet coke. ;)
Re: Nana…Nana…Boo Boo
LOL.. You are eeeeee-vul!
katee says….
when i was in, i think that it was 3rd grade, i was having vision problems…i am terribly near-sighted. i remember going through all the tests and then they eye doctor telling my mother that i was “faking it”. right. like a 3rd grader, a dorky one at that, would WANT to get glasses to make her even dorkier… what kind of shit is that? are all eye doctors assholes? why would a kid fake a vision problem? i just dont get it…sorry about the rant. :) but 17 years later, it still pisses me off. i hope you figure out whatever is wrong with your little girl’s eye.
<3 Kate
Re: katee says….
Thanks… and when I asked her if she was faking it, she did get mad. Mad at me and mad at the doc for suggesting. I know its offensive to be called a liar when you aren’t lying.
And no, she doesn’t want glasses. As if being 13 isn’t awkward enough, right? Bah.
your kitties are so cute!
Yep. They take after me. ;)