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Some think that what I do here is distasteful. That it shows lack of dignity.
Some think that I should treasure these intimate details like a rare jewel, tucked securely in a cushion of velvet.
Some think they are better, fancy themselves more refined than I, merely because they aren’t tasked with sharing these private moments.
So I ask them, if your Master did order it, could you? Could you swallow your pride, tamp down that huge, over-inflated ego of yours, and bare yourself?
These moments, these “gems”, are not mine to hoard. I don’t own them. The one who does own them sees no use of them being stuffed away in a pretty jewelry box on a dusty shelf. The approval that I seek I see in his eyes when he views how I’ve put my own modesty aside and done what is asked. A not-so-easy task, and if you doubt that, let’s see you do it. You take far too much pride in the easy things you do. I find *that* way more shameful than my acquiescence.
Perhaps I’m the one who has it backward, but it seems to me that when it comes to admirable qualities in submission, obedience ranks far above priggishness. As a reflection of your owner, you should be ashamed of *yourself*.
As for vulgar? Honey, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet.
“The courage to wonder about other life-perspectives than presently held, unprovoked by people and circumstances, especially when they may contradict lifelong convictions, takes not only a spiritual giant with a child’s curiosity, but a blazing desire for more of everything life has to offer.”
~The Universe
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Monday January 21st, 2008 10:03am
Oh you’re a cruel and heartless cunt.
Penguin’s gone and I don’t get to see him again for another two weeks
*pouts*
lol.. I’m sorry!
not. tee hee.
Well, it’s actually been decided that I’m driving up there for a booty call in a few days so my suffering will come to an end…if he allows it
**applauds** Thank for saying that!
Thank you for reading it!
*jumps up and down applauding kaya and her Master*
I don’t see why people get their panties in a twist about what other slaves are ordered to do, unless it directly affects an order that their Owner has given, or directly affects their relationship in a negative manner.
*shakes head* Silly snobs.
By the way, when am I coming over to paint your house? :-p
Whenever you want to! I’m only just finshing up the primer. I still have to put the color on!
A)Youre right. Fuck them the prudes
B)Thats a new use for my cross stitch hoop
C)I may get the courage to post some naughty pix in a private post that (of course) Ill share the password to with you.
Craft supplies can always be perverted.
Evil cunt!
Or should I say evil Sir??
*smirks ‘n blows ya both some kisses*
Definitely evil Sir. I? Am perfectly innocent.
Perhaps I’m the one who has it backward, but it seems to me that when it comes to admirable qualities in submission, obedience ranks far above priggishness. As a reflection of your owner, you should be ashamed of *yourself*.
Nope. You’re not the one who has it backward. If I were her (his?) owner, I’d certainly be ashamed. If something offends, you don’t read it. Seems simple enough.
Bravo to you – not only for your courage in responding thru this post, but also for completing the task. I can’t even imagine how painful it was.
Blush
It was plenty painful! It hurt like a mofo. *whine*
Thanks.
Fuck em & feed em fish heads.
ok i gotta say *giggles* i love this response!
*snort*
First — no one is required to LOOK at anything. Here or anywhere else. If someone makes the conscious choice (which by virtue of the fact that they went behind the cut, is de facto the case), then you get to assume that the “whining” is just for show.
Second — why is it that those of us who DO this keep feelin like we need to RESPOND and JUSTIFY what we do when wannabes question it?
Do what you do. For the reasons that you do it. The rest is all so much nothing.
swan
Honestly I don’t know why we feel that need. I’ve questioned that just as often as I’ve wasted time trying to justify myself. Why do I do it? Why do I care? I dunno.
Love the post. Love the PICTURE even more. Wow…that is just…artistic. Kudos to your Master. Hope you’re feeling better, though it sounds like you are.
-lee
Actually, my Master and I just realized that it looks like a dreamcatcher:
http://www.altaylor-art.co.uk/images/otherstuff/dreamcatcher.jpg
A dreamcatcher is exactly what i thought as well, hey it works for me and i’m sure my Master (as soon as he see’s this) will have one made in no time…BIG SMILES
bootsie
*snicker* It does look like that!
Kaya, love the post, love the picture, S does have a beautiful cunt, can’t blame Him for wanting to show it off.
Isn’t yesterdays message from the universe awesome.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
Awww.. thank you Paul. How weird is it to compliment someone’s pussy anyway? *snicker*
Hmmm so many things running through my head. First and foremost if they are so prude and opinionated why are they even reading your journal. If they do not enjoy it as we do then why not click the X in the upper right corner. I truly enjoy being a voyeur in your life. I feel honored that you share such intimate moments. I am always impressed that you honor your Master by doing what he requests. You are an amazing woman, even more amazing slave, and you balance your life perfectly between serving your Master and your children. Dont let the negativity get you down they are just jealous!!!!!!!!
Thank you! I don’t know why they read it either!
You know Kaya, if they don’t want to see it, they dont’ have to look.
And you shaved…..I must have missed that post. Do you like it better?
I did! Master shaved me for my birthday present.
Kaya,
“The courage to wonder about other life-perspectives than presently held, unprovoked by people and circumstances, especially when they may contradict lifelong convictions, takes not only a spiritual giant with a child’s curiosity, but a blazing desire for more of everything life has to offer.”
I can’t thank you enough for this quote. It means a lot to me right now. I’m having to do that right now and it’s not an easy process (See Ashleigh’s Mother’s Lament post for details).
Dave
I did read that comment Dave. I’m so proud of you. More than you can imagine. I look forward to Blue’s post about it.
WOW !!! i am most impressed (sorry kaya – but i am!!) most impressed with the quality of the photograph.. WOW !!!
ok ok.. i admit it .. i am also impressed by the fact that despite the clothes pegs you still manage to squeeze Him in……. all i could think was OUCH ……. (god am i wimping out in my old age???)
morningstar (owned by Warren)
Oh it hurt. I swore he was ripping my lips off when he was forcing his way in. I expected blood and bits of pussy on the bed when he was done. But no.. of course not.. nothing at all.
I’m hiding that thing though. I’m in no hurry to repeat it!
kaya,
Great toy, can’t wait to have Master try this one out on me…
It’s nice to see how much support there is out there for you and what you/we believe in!!!
The funny thing is, the people who complain and insult you about what your doing are the ones that wish they had a Master to tell them what to do, someone to obey and honor or they wish they had the strength to do and share what you do!
Kudo’s my new friend for doing what you do and sharing it with us!!!
Also thank you for your help/info about my blog site, much appreciated!
s bootsie
My pleasure, sweetheart.
Fuck ‘em all.
Most of those who complain about pictures are the ones who don’t put pictures up themselves.
And why don’t they put pictures up themselves? They’ll tell you it’s to maintain privacy or they don’t have a camera or they want to keep those precious moments to themselves.
It’s usually really because they’re fat and ugly and insecure. Or because they’re lying about who they are and everything they say they do.
*shrug*
Just be you.
Fuck what those whiners have to say.
I’ve always thought so too! Glad we agree.
Hehe.
I seem to have pissed someone off with this comment – since they came over to my site and called me fat, ugly and insecure due to my lack of pics.
hehehehehehehhehe
Erm.. but you *have* pics.
*snicker*
Oh well. She’s not going to read here anymore anyway! She posted her flouncy goodbye comment on another post. There’s a word for that, when someone posts a comment like that. What is it? I can’t remember.
Fuck ‘em and feed ‘em fish heads?
…and most of us don’t give a flying fuck what “some people” think.
Glad you and S agree.
VERY impressive photo!
Thanks!
*claps*
You go girl!!
At the end of the day what matters most is how your Master sees you in his eyes – if you have pleased him by being all that you have been trained to be and more.
Bravo sweetie. As always very VERY well said!!!
Why thank ya.
Right on. Well said, and you’re exactly right…your Master’s wishes trumps anything anyone else has to say. I’ve often told grace that the only opinion that matters is mine, and the only shame or pride she should ever feel is based solely on my judgement.
A Master’s wishes and orders aside…I recently remarked to her that (to paraphrase) if you don’t want your shit out there, you shouldn’t put it online…well, the reverse is true too. If you don’t want to see it or know about it, then don’t go looking. It’s far easier to judge and accept others based on the narrow glimpses they give us than it is to accept and embrace their right to exist, express, and enjoy. Good on you.
-Mandalor
Thank you Sir. Nice to see you around again.
Dear Cunt~
I commend you for what you do- my Master and I recently started our own site and your site has been a been an inspiration to me as a submissive woman with an attitude problem. I love your persona and the pics are great. Hope it is OK- but I referenced you in a recent post regarding my very first breast torture- if not please let me know…
~Viemoira
It’s perfectly fine! I can’t wait to read yours.
OK, so I’m still looking for the vulgar pic… yeah yeah, cuz I’m crass that way.
I just gotta add, the colors in that pic are awesome, the green, the purple, the red…. nice shot!
I’m dying to know tho… does he ever get clipped by the clothes pegs on the hoop? If he’s thrusting really hard? And if the answer is yes, is it a bad kind of pain or just a minor kind of sensation? (for him, silly, not you!!) I’m wondering about hte device from that perspective.
xo
No, he doesn’t feel a thing. I, on the other hand, am DYING! I’m being shredded (or so it feels).. but no, he’s all kinds of giggly about it. Bastard.
I am very proud if you for loving so much to give yourself so compleltely to him. Very few could commit to such devotion.
What adults do in their bedroom is their own business.
I can not praise you enough for being the woman and person you want to be. Go girl!
Thanks!
very nice girl are you and your wise and gentle Master still selling your neat little toys?
Mr Robert and his soon to be cringing wife belle
lol
I’ll send you an email, Sir.
love the picture, as always kaya.. screw the whiners and complainers.. if they dont like it, they can click out. your submission and obedience to your Master is beautiful- dont change girl.. hugs, Hisflower
Thanks, kiddo.
It never ceases to amaze me when people just don’t click the little x if they don’t like what they are seeing or reading.
i agree your submission (and the rest of you for that matter) is beautiful!
I should do the same thing, too. I should be clicking the x when it’s something that *I* don’t like instead of letting it fuel my own rants. *sigh*
This is your blog (maybe I should call it a site now?), and it need only serve the needs of you and S.
Do I see things here that sometimes make me shudder? Hell, yes. Do I want to replicate your experiences? No, because I have my own reality. That’s the point though; I come and read because I enjoy hearing your perspective and watching your journey.
Anyone who does not like what they find here can exercise their right to click the little red X in the corner. That’s what it’s there for.
Clicking the x is a very hard concept for some!
I love this post. And I’ll be perving on that photo for awhile too.
lol… I perved myself so feel free!
beautiful kaya,
i think what you do is brave as it shows a willingness to obey even when it is not easy or “pretty” in the eyes of some. you are owned and it never occurs to me to think that anything you post, photo wise is not completely at the discretion and direction of your owner.
i will never understand why those that might criticize you don’t just get a life and READ ELSEWHERE!!! Please don’t let it hurt you and know those who understand what it takes to truly submit your will to another understand the strength it takes to bend your will to He who owns you. It isn’t our choice to obey when it’s fun or pretty or we’re in the mood or it turns us on. 24/7 means whenever with no “whatever”!!
love your honesty and always admire you for being true to your slave nature whether your having fun or not!
s/nik
Read elsewhere is advice I need to take myself.
Thanks, hun.
Pahhhh…..
You are an inspiration hon.
Love the pics and love the expression in your words. You do not hold yourself in any higher esteem than any of us. You never judge, you are kind and compassionate. You share your life and certainly inspire me and give me courage.
(despite the fact you voted for me being punished on my blog…. but I kinda like thaaaaaatttt also).
You are an indivdual and never a hypocrite. I admire those qualities.
rosie
xxxx
tee hee. I was afraid I’d made you mad with the vote, but it tickled me silly.
I always thought subs like that are reflecting their master’s opinions. If their dom wants to keep them private, not share, and makes a big deal about it’s all for me me me, then their subs internalize that and it makes what you and I do seem vulgar and wrong, you know? Just like you think they are being a prude, because you’ve internalized what your master wants as being the right and proper thing.
You know what I mean?
I know what you mean. The difference is I’m not out trying to make them feel bad for doing what their Master wants. *shrug* The thing that has always gotten to me though, is that the only reason that they *aren’t* posting this kind of stuff is because their Master doesn’t want it. So how do they rationalize the gloating about *themselves*? You know what I mean? Whatever they are allowed, or not allowed to do, is a gift from their Owner.. bah. I don’t get it.
>>>The difference is I’m not out trying to make them feel bad for doing what their Master wants.
Oh, sure you are
You call them prudes, or whatever, and think you are a better sub, your way is harder, whatever. Hell, didn’t you dare them to try it your way?
Human nature. My way is the best way. Duh!
Oh I know I was doing it now. I haven’t yet decided that I don’t need to defend myself. I don’t think badly of them simply because they do it differently, up until they act like baboons.
I’m perfectly aware of how childish and stupid the whole thing is anyway. What’s that old saying? Fighting on the internet is like the Special Olympics.. you may win but you’re still retarded? *snicker* So I know what I’m doing, but it feeds that junior high mentality that I still have.
Someday I’ll grow up and be over it and all of that.
Master informed me last night that He thinks i should take up embrodery *groans* i do love the use of everyday items made into something completely kinky and soooooooo not the purpose it was meant for *giggles*
And i’m on board with everyone else…Unless their owners MAKE them read this (if they even HAVE owners) they have the option to shut the fucking window…And if their owners DO make them read it, there’s a reason for it and they need to find that reason instead of attempting to berate someone. i think it’s fear more than anything. Afraid that their owner is getting ideas (as i am whenever Master wanders through here but in a fun kind of afraid). i dunno, my opinion…If you(the whiner) don’t like it, lump it.
~His bits
If you make one, I hope you have to post pictures of it..lol. I want to see! (it hurts, btw. ‘specially when he gets to poking around down there!)
I agree with everything else you said. 100%.
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