I’m bored.
Master’s taking a nap cuz he has a headache (which *I* did not give to him. For a change.) but we’re supposed to go fishing.
So I’m bored.
I could clean the house but – that’s boring.
I could watch a movie but- that’s boring, too.
I could read but- yep. Boring. I’ve read like 4 books this week. My eyes are tired.
So I come here.. and I really have nothing to talk about.
I killed most everything in the fish tank last week. Not on purpose, just.. cuz I didn’t know why everything was dying. I had about 25 dwarf african frogs and a betta fish and an algae eater in there and then… I dunno.. the frogs started to die. I changed the water- still dying. About 2 a day. I hadn’t done anything different at alll so I was baffled.
Anyway, I finally took everything out, dumped out all the water and in looking over the filter noticed that it was completely clogged with muck. So I’m guessing that even though it was running, it probably wasn’t cleaning the water very well. Probably the water just got too toxic or something.
So, after I cleaned that out and put in all new water, the remaining frogs (about 10 left, if that) and the algae eater seem to be doing okay. The betta died (sniffle. Poor Guapo).
I don’t know how well the garden and flowers are going to do. It got so rainy and cold here for awhile, though the sun is out today. We’ll see. Right now, they look pretty wilted and bedraggled and I’m pretty sure the herbs are drowned. Boo.
The upside down tomatoes look good though. I’ll have to take a picture cuz, you know, everyone has empty cat litter buckets hanging from their deck. It’s a decorating statement!
There’s really not much going on. The summer just seems to be sliding away into nothing. The kids stay up all night and sleep all day- and I don’t really care. *shrug*
Except for Jes. Hee. She’s up earlier and earlier every day. She can’t sleep, too uncomfortable. I told her it was nature’s way of getting her ready and teaching her how to function on little to no sleep before she has the added stress of a crying baby.
She is not amused with my philosophies. 
Her ruling? “Nature sucks ass.”
No baby yet, obviously. She wants to go fishing with us, too. I told her she better not tip the boat over swinging her ginormous belly around.
Let’s see.
Um.. I’m horny.
Frustrating that Master is sleeping and isn’t willing to “service” me. Stingy bastard. I even woke him up and announced my plight. He shooed me away.
I’m gonna try that next time the tables are turned. I’m gonna shoo HIM away.
Yeah right! I don’t have a death wish!
Oh! Did I tell you that I went to the doc and she prescribed me Prozac for my pms?
Well, actually she said I have pmdd and not pms but, pffft, I dunno what I think about buzzwords like that.
Anyway, she gave me this prescription to take only during the two weeks before my cycle (and she gave me the go ahead on birth control pills to skip my period in August) so I call Master up after the appointment and I tell him about the prescription for the pms and you know what he says??
“Thank GOD!”
*insert hurt feelings here*
Seriously? Was I THAT bad?
*sniffle*
I mean, he used to tell me I wasn’t that bad. After it was over and I’d be sniveling into his shirt apologizing for being an ass, he’d pat me on the head and say “You aren’t that bad, snooks. It’s okay.”
Hmmph. Liar.
He could have just TOLD me to go get treatment. In fact he used to tell me not to worry about, that he didn’t want me on medication and that *it isn’t that bad*!!
Truth be told, one of the side effects of prozac is sexual dysfunction (loss of interest, inability to orgasm) and should those be the side effects I end up with, he’ll probably dump the pills down the toilet anyway. I think he’d rather deal with pms than have a non-sexual sex slave.
Although… hmmm… taking it when I don’t wanna can be fun, too.
Besides, if I don’t have pms, what the hell am I going to rant about here?!?!?
Well that’s all I got. This may be the most boringest entry evah.
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Friday July 3rd, 2009 1:39pm
I can tell you from my experience with zoloft (for depression not PMDD) in 1999, I definitely experienced that side effect. It was horribl and a hitachi for 2 hours wouldn’t have helped me, it was impossible. For me it wasn’t worth it at all.
Hmmmm well I’ve taken Prozac (for depression) and you might be OK just taking it for two weeks a month. I doubt that your doc is putting you on a large dose; give it a try. jmo~~
Hee! I thought my guy was the only one who grew plants in cat litter thingies.
If the Prozac turns off the hornies, try a different SSRI. Get a list of them (google) and go in and say to your doctor “Can I try this one instead?” until you find one that works. Most of them can help PMS but not all of the squish your sex drive as much.
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Since you are taking it only 2 weeks. Then it might not be bad for you but for me it was HORRIBLE. And it did turn off my sexual desires and all my emotions. I had a great aunt die while I was on it and I didn’t feel a thing. I just was like oh okay. I felt very empty. But of course this was years ago so not sure how much things have changed with prozac too.
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It sounds like some of you may have been on too high of a dose. At first they often increase doses until you feel better. But….you are in a crisis if you went for help in the first place, so later after a year or so a decrease in dose may be needed to decrease side effects once your mood is more stable. I have been on antidepressants for years. I have had side effects from nausea to loss of libido, what I have found is that your body changes and adjusts over time. If you are really depressed or your pmdd is really bad, give it time. As much as the first year may be a adjustment phase. If you truly need the medication…It is worth it. imho
Hey Kaya my dear!
I shall number my responses, so I don’t forget any of them!
1.) Re: side-effects — don’t assume you will get *those* side-effects! I’m on Wellbutrin, and loss of sexual appetite was listed as an option, but if anything, I’ve had the opposite reaction! (It may be that getting rid of depression just uncovered even more insatiable-ness in my character!) Also, listen to Sera and don’t be afraid to experiment until you find the medication that’s “just right.”
2.) Prozac won’t kill *all* your PMS/PMDD. It’s not a miracle … just medication! What it *will* do is make it easier to fight off feelings you know are irrational, help you not give in to thought-patterns that will only lead to you (and Master S!) being miserable (you know the ones: “He just said something that upset me. That means he doesn’t love me as much as he used to. It’s all my fault – I’m a bad person! No wait, it’s all his fault because he knew I was a bad person and he wanted to get into this relationship with me, so he should deal with me better. Fine, I’m gonna stop being his slave — that’ll show him!” — you’re not the *only one* to go down that silly, hurtful path!) Anyway, Prozac should help you resist the siren lure of those harmful thoughts (why are they so alluring? Fuck’d if I know!) and if it doesn’t, just try something else. I take Wellbutrin every day, and it’s only done me a world of good!
3.) My Master told me I wasn’t that bad, and he never pushed me to be on meds. He left that choice to me … but I know he really appreciates how much easier our lives are! The thing is that Master S. said the right things when it was needed, and he meant them in that moment. But if the Prozac works, *both of you* are going to be so thankful and appreciative of it! (Think about it — what with PMS and then the period itself, we loose about half a month to emotional rollercoasters! When you find something to correct that, you get half your life back!)
GOOD LUCK! I hope you get lucky like me and score the perfect med on the first try … but if you don’t, don’t give up. And, please feel free to email or call me if you have any questions or concerns!
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Celexa is in the Paxil family but I’ve had NO side effects. It truly has been a wonder drug for me…depression runs in my family and I feel so grateful to live now instead of in my dad’s and his mother’s times. Prozac also worked on the depression but it nearly turned off the ability to orgasm…not so with Celexa.
Kaya,
How about a stupid joke to give you a chuckle.
Why does Dr. Pepper come in a bottle?—-His wife died. badadum
When all gets too boring, remember, Spankfest is less than two months away!
Dave
my psychologist suggested prozac for my pms too, but i was/am too scared to go down that route…meds scare the shit out of me. i always feel like i *should* be able to reason my way out of *thought* stuff – though many times that just doesn’t work for me hahaha. i’ll be very very interested to hear about your experiences of it, if you would be so kind as to share them. i know everyone reacts differently and all, but i don’t even know anyone who has tried Prozac for this particular situation, so any info would help. Many thanks and best wishes xoxoxo
weirdgirl
So on a totally different track than everyone else…. I’ll talk about the fishes lol. I used to have a beta fishy. He was sooooo old… Like 5 or something… He was great. I loved him. Called him Fishy and everything. *silly grin* Anywho… He was the happiest little fishy in the world that is until I cleaned his tank. Then he would swim to the top of the bowl and swim round and round, faster and faster and then *pause for dramatic affect* He would dive bomb his head into the rocks on the bottom. lol Stupid fishy…
Thought I would toss in my experience too.
I was on Prozac for 6 months to see if it would help my ‘menstrual migrains’. I wasn’t explained the whole sexual side affect part either. Suddenly…… what happened to my orgasims????? boooooooo!!
It was months before I realized thats what was going on. Poor hubby! He was sure it was him.
My desire never went away, just the orgasims!
I have also taken birth control pills to ward off periods and stop the hormonal drop of ovulating. That might be just the thing for you in the long run. Just take the pills and toss the placebos. If you do have periods they are light and next to nothing and the big PMS drop shouldn’t happen. Takes a few months for your body to adjust to it, but what a treat after so many awful periods to have to deal with!
Wishing you guys the best! Your Spankfest game looks….umm..interesting too
xox
rinna
I’ve been taking Lexapro (another SSRI)for my pms for about 2 years now and it works fabulously. I take it for a week before my period, and I’m a whole new person when that dreaded time comes. Between that and the Yaz – you can’t tell I’m having PMS unless I mention it. Master loves it. Says it makes me much, MUCH easier to deal with. Good luck!
I’m in the “antidepressants made my life a million times worse” camp. I gained a ton of weight and felt tired all of the time, my sex drive was nonexistent and I couldn’t orgasm, and worst of all, I lost all ability to feel any emotion. It was horrible, and I stopped taking the medication after I realized that the extreme PMS mood swings and depression were preferrable to feeling like a zombie. At least I still felt human when I felt crummy.
Going off the medication was even worse (seriously…Google “SSRI discontinuation syndrome” to see what you’re in for when you stop using the medication) and I count it as the worst medical experience of my life. And this is coming from someone who spent a month in the hospital last year nursing severe injuries.
Here is where the critics tell me that “I didn’t give SSRIs enough of a try” or “my dose was too high”. I tried five different brands at different doses over the course of two years, and came to the same shitty result each time. I tried hard to make it work for me and it just didn’t.
Now I know I’m just another random person on the internet and the stuff I’m telling you is anecdotal. But let me ask you this: do you really want to experience all the fun stuff that comes with trying a new medication when you’re about to deal with a high stress situation (new baby in the house) or when you’re on vacation? Believe me, I understand how much PMS sucks, but at least you know what to expect from it and can plan around it.
Sup.
I have PMDD too. Sweeeeeeet.
OTC, I like Primrose Oil. It actually helps me a widdle bit.
Dunno if you’re looking for full-time pill-form birth control, (or looking to switch) but Yaz is the only one that can help PMDD.
And I’m pretty sure ONLY Sarafem, Paxil CR, and Zoloft are FDA approved for treatment of PMDD.
So if Prozac doesn’t work? Take that info about FDA approved drugs back with ya to the doc and request another drug. (That’s not to say other SSRIs won’t work, or that Prozac specifically won’t work… Just that the FDA hasn’t approved them for PMDD yet.)
Oh, and someone in here recommended Lexapro. That’s cool, and I took it for a while… But watch out asking for it – it doesn’t have a generic so even with insurance, it can end up costing you a buttload.
Thazallfernow.
~Chloe, resident PMDD sufferer, and psychopharmacology nerd
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im in the ‘OMG not anti depressants’ camp
I went through six kinds over a period of 3 years.
NONE of them could just be started and stopped over a 2 week period. Yes that discontinuation syndrome is very real.
Yes, I started at low dosages. no good effects just ALL the listed bad side effects
Zoloft was so bad I had to quit work after one week (low ’starter dose)
Effexor is completely the most evil, after taking it for six months it took six months to wean off (by counting the lil balls in the capsule) if i skipped one dose i black out headache vomit swimmy vision. one doctor said ‘oh just quit taking effexor and start welbutrin’ i ended up hospitalised cause he hadnt heard of the discontinuation syndrome.
celexa was easy to stop and start.
ALL BUT Welbutrin totally and i mean TOTALLY killed even the thought of sex. someone said its like being a zombie and thats how id describe it too. Like’oh, i have girly bits and what are they for?’
NOT ONE helped my depression (dunno about PMDD)
I was so mad that the drs wouldnt listen to me or believe me, I just feel like the drug companies are pedaling junk that they paid a lot to develop.
I finally got something to help but its disapointingly cheap by drug company ideals.
long rant…
be vewy vewy vewy careful is all i can suggest.
GL
I’ve heard good things about the Mirena IUD and PMDD. It mostly stops your periods altogether and seems to help with the crazy.
Me, I had my entire uterus yanked in 2002. The level of crazy in this house went down by almost half. Heaven.
I get bored all the damn time but don’t have the attention span to cure it. I go clean something, or bake. It helps that I have no appetite so it doesn’t make me fat.
I am on Wellbutrin and I find it does keep my moods in check pretty well. I was on Prozac before and it did kill everything that had to do with my ability to orgasm as well as any sex drive. I gained a lot of weight too.
With Welbutrin, my drive is just fine, could be higher I am sure, but I also take Depo so as to not have periods… Definitely like to be ready whenever my Master is.
Good luck anyway… I do think it’s odd they are prescribing it for just 2 weeks a month though.. kind of seems like the yoyoing would be bad for you…I think it would be better to be on something consistently… but that’s just me…
Nothing kills those algae eaters, I swear!
I can’t believe how easily doctors prescribe anti-depressants today. They can cause a multitude of bad side-effects and really fuck with your psyche. Sometimes permanently (like my sister, who says she was never the same after taking an anti-depressant years ago).
Is your PMS really *that* bad that you want to open this door? I understand that for some they can be helpful but I think they are over-prescribed and offered far too quickly.
When I first developed my tinnitus last year and was so freaked out about it, my doctor suggested anti-depressants right off the bat. I was horrified, my jaw dropped with shock. I mean, I had a physical condition that was causing me to react emotionally but I wasn’t unduly depressed. I was merely scared and upset. Dan comes to my visits with me, so he was there and he said, “no way”. Of course, I wouldn’t have agreed, even if Dan hadn’t been there. And I’m glad I did not take them and stuck it out because as the tinnitus got better and my fear receded, I might have associated my natural recovery on my own with the drug making it go away and stayed on it, believing IT was why I stopped obsessing and not just because I stopped on my own.
I’ve watched friends and relatives get on a merry-go-round with these meds. My sister had a terrible experience years ago; the insidious part of it was she didn’t even understand that her behavior had changed so drastically until she went off the meds and became herself again.
My brother…he’s been on several different types over the last 10, 20 years or so. Every time they put him on a new type, he always says they help so much but I don’t see it. He still has severe emotional issues, panic disorders, etc., he still sees a shrink all the time, despite all the drugs he’s now on. And he’s on several. He’ll never stop taking them, though. He’s addicted to the idea of having them in his system and far too afraid to go off them.
I see the change in him and it’s pretty scary. And it wasn’t like he was having severe issues in the first place; he was going through a lot of stress due to his business failing, he asked the doctor for something to help him sleep and bang, they put him on anti-depressants and he’s never gone off them since.
I know it’s none of my business and you know yourself best but I can’t help but caution you about this.
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don’t think about the sexual dysfunction side affects – that is pretty rare and somehow I think your a horny enough slave for it to not be a problem