I can count
I was talking to Master on the phone (He comes home in 5 days! Hooray! I’m so damn horny I’m fucking candles…lol) and it became apparent to Him that I was leaving the words “Sir” or “Master” out of the conversation.
Now, I don’t always refer to Him by those terms.. with kids around, you just can’t. (Although I have a story about THAT too but later) I also don’t refer to Him by His name unless I’m talking about Him to someone who has no clue about us.. and then saying His name almost makes me feel naughty. It’s just not right. But when it’s appropriate… especially on the phone and especially when I’m getting a mini-lecture, Sir or Master is expected.
“What are you supposed to be saying?”
“Sir.”
“And why aren’t you?”
“cuz it sounds stupid.”
Open mouth.. insert foot.
I didn’t mean that calling Him Sir or Master sounds stupid.. I really really didn’t. Well I did.. but not in an insulting kind of way. I meant that sometimes I feel goofy saying it. Too much like I Dream of Jeanie. I’ll blush even.. all by myself.. just from saying Master. Not all the time though.. sometimes it’s just the most natural thing in the world.
He really wasn’t upset… amused maybe. We started talking about ways to fix it. I remember reading on ravenna’s site awhile back how they fixed it and leaving out all the delicious details (you’ll have to go read it yourself but make sure you bring your vibe along..:)the main thing was the repetition of it. Driving out the embarrassment demons. With Master in another state for the time being, we can’t do it ravenna’s way, though I’d give my left tit to be able to.
Anyway, Master and I were talking about the repetition, a chant almost. Of course I have to be in the corner for it. Master likes the corner. I’m in the corner ALOT. Truthfully, I like it too. It has close to the same effect as being caged or in the closet. Eliminating all distractions and focusing on your thoughts…. what else CAN you do? I kind of feel like I’m shedding stress and irritants, the way you might take off layers of clothes as I stand there… (I was going into a long detailed corner-post but I’ll save it. As fascinated as you all are to hear about what I think when I’m staring at the joint of two walls..lol.. I’m making you wait..:P)
So, I’m to stand in the corner.. and when I feel centered I’m to start repeating ‘yes Master’ 50 times, ‘no Master’ 50 times, ‘yes Sir’ 50 times, ‘no Sir’ 50 times. To which I interrupted with “I can’t count and talk at the same time!” It did not occur to me to say the number first. Or to use my fingers and toes. Or to make lil claw marks in the paint. Nothing occurred to me. I thought I stumped Him.
I have never once stumped Him but I always think I’m going to. I did not this time either. Honest to God I think He waits for these words of ignorance to fall from my lips. I heard Him smile through the phone. You know the smile. That slow curving, eyes flashing, the-better-to-eat-you-with smile. THAT smile.
He asked me if I could count clothespins.
Yes, I can.
Can I count 50 of them?
Yes, I can.
I can count 50 of them and place them somewhere on my body. And remove one with each repeated ‘yes Master’. And then put them all back on.. and do it again for ‘no Master’… and again for ‘yes Sir.. and again for ‘no Sir’. (4×50=200. You see how high I can count?)
Every day.
Every day.
How much you want to bet I lose this embarrassment thing REAL quick.
Freakin’ sadists.
Tags: discipline
Uncategorized | kaya | 
Sunday January 15th, 2006 1:35am
Master…
I had too that feeling of stupidness while using such words as Sir, or Master, at the right beginning, and I often been sarcastic about that… You probably understood already that our D/s is almost kept in the bedroom… and that out of sexual exchanges, our life is more in the average ‘norm’…
I was thinking that if ever He asks me to use those titles in other occasions, I will feel terrified, and I will feel stupid… and would prefer disappear under the ground than pronounced them…;-))
For sure, the solution your Master found is one of the most convincing…
Re: Master…
Am I gonna have it right soon??
SeaRabbit… and far from Anonymous… sorry!!!!
Re: Master…
I always know when it’s you…:) Your style is uniquely yours.
Hello, I was drawn to your post by yummy’s mention of the idea her owner received from your posting of the wire scrunchie. From what I have read you have alot of interesting stuff going on and I would like to read more. I think that I sent you an invite.
The clothes pin idea is Wonderful – I’m taking notes -S-
Thank you…:) It’s nice to meet you.