Gone Camping!
In the continuing saga of how my menstrual cycle is fucking with my camping plans- I *just* started my period today.
I had 3 whole days of spotting, which I’m attributing to the hot parsley water because I have never in my life spotted for 3 days before my period, and no doubt these 3 days will simply add to the regular 7 days that I usually bleed. It was a gift. Thank you, Mother Nature, you whore.
Haven’t I ever been told not to fuck with Mother Nature??
So, meh, it changes some things but as Master likes to say, it is what it is.
I’m not as excited about camp as I was last year. I’m delighted to be getting a vacation. I’m delighted it’s a kinky vacation. I’m just kinda ‘meh’. Maybe that’ll change once we’re there and the atmosphere sinks in. Maybe I’m sensing that Master is also kinda ‘meh’. Maybe we just need to reconnect.
It’s been a long, hard, stressful year for us. We’ve had to put a lot of things on the back burner just so we can stay afloat, and that takes a toll on things. I feel disconnected from s&m. Service is still strong, but camp isn’t really about service. So I’m a little nervous, a little worried.
I’m sure it’ll be fine, no matter what. I know that I can’t come away disappointed because that is not possible! Y’all really should put Twisted Tryst on your bucket list. It’s absolutely an amazingly fun experience.
So, we’re leaving Wednesday morning, possibly even Tuesday night, coming back on Sunday or Monday. It’s going to be good. Bloody or not. *grumble*
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I have a new collar coming. It should be delivered today. It’s one I can’t rip off and throw at him when I’m mad and want to tell him to shove the whole slavery gig up his ass. I’m curious to see if that’ll make any difference to how I feel when I’m wanting to shove the whole gig up his ass.
I’ve heard a lot of talk about the getting-used-to process of eternity type collars so that has me a little apprehensive. Sometimes having things around my neck, especially rigid things, makes me feel all choke-y. Hopefully, we measured correctly and got the right size.
I dunno yet about wearing it when we’re at home, around the kids, etc. They’ll know exactly what it is. I’m not sure if that makes it better or worse, to tell the truth.
They already know what kind of camp we’re going to. Not specifically-exactly what kind of camp, just a general idea of it being adults-only and “one of those weird things you guys do”.
Anyway, I’ve got lots of packing and sorting and planning to do so until next week (unless I get online from camp!), y’all have a great one!
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Uncategorized | kaya | 
Monday August 23rd, 2010 9:08am
Oh hey Yay! on your collar and on your period.
It took me about a week to get used to my eternity collar. I’m getting a new one for our anniversary in October. I have a slide on mine that makes it look really necklace like.
yay! Collar. :)
Have fun camping :)
I got used to my eternity collar pretty quickly. Although, yeah, it’s kind of frustrating to want to throw the collar at his stupid head, but YOU CAN’T so…you’ll just…. be angry. Or something. Bah.
I threw my wedding ring at him yesterday and then reached up to my collar and grabbed it and pulled it and just screamed and he laughed at me…
Have a good time. You can’t unwind and “be in the moment” yet…coz GETTING there is a big effort…i have a feeling there will be a big-assed grin on your face once you sit back down here to tell us all the squicky things you endured…and loved…at big people camp!!!
Have a sumptious feast of fun!
nilla
Oh have a great time! I’m sure you will.. whether you know it now or not~~
Remember we want details so keep good notes!
I love my eternity collar. Master let me carry the key to it the first couple of weeks. I had 2 anxiety attacks with it-the first one He let me take it off and the second one He talked me through. I wear it to work everyday. People not in the lifestyle think it’s just a heavy necklace. The only time it comes off is when I go through airport security when I travel for work. The only bad thing is that I’ve lost some weight and now it’s too big-lol When I lose the rest, Master has promised a new one.
I promise you’ll love it once you’re used to it.
Delilah
OK – being selfish, I am going to miss you (read you everyday before work), but I know that you are going to have an awesome time at Twisted Tryst. Looking forward to living vicariously though you, exhibitionist that I am.
What do you do with babygirl while you are gone? I also have my grandchild (one year old) and dont know how I could get away for so long.
Have fun at camping!
I wear my eternity collar everywhere. I don’t think regular people notice it as much as I think they did. It took me a couple days to get used to, but I feel funny without it now. :)
I had about a two week period where I wore the collar for increasing periods of time – overnight, during the day in the house, out for the first time and then full time for a few days unlocked.
I ripped it off once during this period and generally had all my “rebellion” instincts kick up. It ended with me telling Master that I wasn’t sure I’d ever be ready for him to lock it. The next night, he locked it. :-)
I was really worried about how people would react to it. I was convinced it was the equivalent of wearing a neon sign on my forehead that said, “I’m becoming His slave!”
Mine is black with a metal lock, so it is an “unusual necklace.” My family looked at it and asked about what it was but they have never asked why I wear it. Sometimes strangers will say, “Interesting [or cool] necklace.” I respond with a simple thank you or “yes, I like it.” I’m sure most people want to ask more about it but no one ever does.
Mine does set off the airport security. The first time it happened, I didn’t even think about it before going through security. It was locked, and I was by myself – so I just got wanded. I have not yet asked Master to unlock it while I’m traveling. All the times I’ve traveled thus far have been by myself on the place, so I actually get kind of a kick out of being pulled aside and treated a bit like an object! (Of course, I have to allow some extra time for security.) When I travel with someone else (and not Master), I may ask him to remove it…and he will decide whether to say yes or no.
During the year, the lock broke so there was a time while we were waiting for the replacement collar where I could still wear it but it wasn’t locked. I got mad at him one day and ripped it off after he left my house. He punished me for my behavior (after talking out the reason I was angry). Since I know it is locked now, I don’t even think of it as an option but I do find it interesting how I resorted to that when I knew I could.
How are you? Did you have fun? :)