Down With The Sickness
I think I’m just dropping. And it sucks.
My mind is blank, I couldn’t make a coherent post if you paid me for it.
I’ve slept more in the last two days than I have in the last week I think. 12 hours today, 10 or so yesterday.
I’m still tired. Unsettled. Antsy- but sleepy.
Last night, Master ordered pizza. Cooking was too complicated.
I finally put the sheets in the wash today, they were bloody. Sad Disgusting as it sounds, I took a strange sort of comfort sleeping on bedsheets that were spotted and smeared with blood that snuck away from me at night, blood from cuts and pokes, wounds, that he’d inflicted on me throughout the days.
Now, it’ll be gone, washed away- it’s too final.
I’m crying because I had to wash bedsheets.
Good Lord.
Fucking subdrop.
Bear with me. It’s been a long time since I’ve dropped this hard. I’ll come around.
~cunt
LikeTags: M/s rambles, subdrop
Uncategorized | kaya | 
Tuesday April 14th, 2009 11:22am
Golly, we should be your last (well, almost last) consideration, and we will wait as long as you want. That you savor (and keep private as long as you want) all you experienced…even the drop…is most important. Been there re: sheets in vanilla & kink. Just take heart in that for you it will happen again ;)
Suze
I so can empathize. I am exhausted and only the necessary demands of life are keeping me on my feet….and your w/e was ever so much more, um, longer than mine :). I’m here if I can help, and even if I can’t
just sending you hugs sweetie..
(((((((hugs))))))))
Hisflower
A liberal application of “Chocolate Therapy” will help, or so I’m told.
Dear Kaya,
I hope you will get better soon. Sooo bad that Scott can´t be there with you – to do some more cuddely aftercare! Hugs from Tina
I’m sorry for your clean sheets. That’s sad.
hugs :) we hope you can get better soon! :)
bloodied sheets. *sigh* I envy you, woman. I wish my Master took the liberties with me as yours does you. Perhaps in due time. I
*Hugs* Will be keeping you in my thoughts.
Hugs, thinking of you.
HUGS. I’m sorry.
Hope you feel better soon. (I’m experiencing subdrop myself right now…blehhhhhhh!)
Take all the time you need!!!
It’s been years since I’ve had subdrop. I hate it and I don’t miss it.
I hope you recover soon. {{{{hugs}}}}}