And I’m okay with that. Although we were never cutting-edge (HA! Get it?? heh..) when it came to D/s-y things in the first place. I’m a wimp when it comes to pain, I’m insanely jealous, I like the idea of being humiliated much more than actually being humiliated, as it turned out, and basically I just love feeling owned and slightly objectified by a strong man who is in charge. That is my main desire and in retrospect, was always the core of it for me anyway.

So yeah…like a housewife in the 50′s. Even with that, I’ve lost my temper and yelled but I don’t get punished, just ignored until I come to my senses.

And I’m really fine with that. I don’t miss all the rules and edgy things. In fact, the other day he surprised me by being rougher than usual; yanking my hair, slapping my tits, which was hawt, but then he squeezed my neck hard and I began to panic. We’ve done breath play before but it’s been years. And although it was hawt then, it wasn’t now. He saw my reaction, instantly stopped, stroked me and said it was okay and we continued without it.

He asked me after we were done what had gone on inside me and I told him how it wasn’t exciting but very scary and he said he was taking it off the menu. Wasn’t upset at all, it is what it is. Dunno…things change, I guess.

I suppose I’m a bona-fide Princess now! *beams* Where’s my tiara? ;P

Actually, lately he’s threatened to make me go along and chain me naked at his feet to the table.

:D <–thats me not objecting.

“My point is(!) bdsm, D/s, slavery, being owned, alla that “hot as fuck” fantasy stuff turns out to look an awful lot like real life. And if one can’t handle life, one shouldn’t be butthurt that bdsm didn’t make it better.

Because it doesn’t fix things. It doesn’t magically disappear the other stuff.”
Tamar´s last [type] ..Starting over

Lessee.
MMORPG. Hmm.. not a lot of vowels to work with..

“Mm. Gorp! ”

:D

I’m always welcome to be there. And about half the time they play here at our house with everyone pretty much in the same room (open floor plan). It’s not an activity that excludes me. It’s an activity I’m not interested in.

But he is, and that’s what he likes to do. I don’t begrudge him that AT ALL.

His computer games are ones that he does play here at home, by himself, on his computer.