Under His Hand

The journal of a slave

Give me a head with hair, long beautiful hair, Shining, gleaming, streaming, flaxen, waxen…

It surprised me, the ease with which the beautician dismissed me and listened to Master.

She initially asked me what I wanted done with my hair as I was taking my seat in her chair. I opened my mouth to deliver the rehearsed directive he’d given me, but before I could finish, Master spoke from where he’d been standing behind us, she turned to him – and she never spoke to me again.

They made small talk while she cut, with her occasionally asking him questions about my hair cut.

I fully expected at some point that she’d ask me if I was okay with it. Or at the very least if I agreed with what he was saying. But nothing.

She was a younger girl, too. I could almost understand an older woman allowing the husband’s opinion to weigh in on his wife’s haircut. But I was pretty well flabbergasted that she didn’t even ask me what I wanted, she just did what he said.

I thought we lived in a feminist society? lol

I could tell from how it felt that she was cutting it short, far FAR shorter than what he’d told me to ask for, and I started to get nervous.

No. That’s not accurate. I started to get terrified. I know how beauticians sometimes take liberties. An inch becomes three, “shoulder length” ends up at your chin. I know because I’ve been there. Me having long hair has been a must for the last 12 years, he barely lets me get a trim, so feeling those scissors snipping so HIGH up my back made me sweat. Was he watching? Was he paying attention? Should I say something? Should I scream “RED!”??

And then I heard him say “No, take off a little more.”

So I let go and let Master.

When I went in, I had hair swishing the small of my back. Now, it’s barely past my shoulders- and some of the layers don’t even touch my neck. It feels AMAZING. I don’t even care what it looks like. My hair was thick and heavy and hot, this feels light and flouncy and lovely.

At the end, as I getting out of the chair she said, almost as an after thought, like she’d forgotten I was there: “Oh! Do you want to see the back of it?” and picked up the little hand mirror to hand me.

I laughed. Nah… what for? Master’s got this.



19 Responses to “Give me a head with hair, long beautiful hair, Shining, gleaming, streaming, flaxen, waxen…”

  • Tori

    Love it!

  • morningstar

    looks very nice – but (pouting) I want a front view – I don’t care what “he” got to see (cheeky grin)

  • weirdgirl

    lovely! Front view please :)

  • Angel

    Did you donate it?

    • kaya

      No, it wasn’t long enough to donate.

  • keth

    Its stunning! But I’m with morningstar – what about the other side?!!

  • Anonymous

    Love the hair and color! :) I agree with the previous posts needs a front view but it look totally amazing and so cool for this summer. :)

  • Mala

    Looks beautiful! Obviously your Master is just one of those men people naturally defer to :)That is so hot ;-)

  • Colors

    this seems like a layer cut… atleast thats wat its called in my part of the world.
    how does it look from the front?

  • Lea

    Glad you both enjoyed it. Sir would lose it if I chopped my hair off. Glad he was into it!

  • jade

    The cut and color is really beautiful. i am often in situations in public where people don’t even talk to me or ask me anything at all. The oddest was at the GYN, where the doctor paused to ask her if she (my Master) wanted me to be pregnant since she could recommend a good fertility clinic. They went on to discuss how my “womb looks young and healthy” like i was not there at all. lol. i’d say most of the time, people defer to her and ask her what i want to eat or drink. She notices it less than i do. My Master cuts my hair herself, which is a huge trust exercise and also a reminder that i’d be literally bald if she wanted that. If it was up to me, i’d have some baby pink curls.

  • Elizabeth

    I do like the new ‘do. But every time I think about this post, what comes to mind is “yeah, Kaya, you’re so vanilla that a total stranger took one look at you and realized you’re not making any of your own decisions.”

  • thisgirl

    I hate going to the hairdressers….though I wouldn’t like going with Grimly as he’d tell them to give me a buzz cut…probably LOL

    You look great!



    • VW

      FIRST OF ALL SHUT IT WITH THE ALL CAPS. Secondly, STFU. Sometimes people have real life shit going on in their lives that takes precedence over anything else, certainly over your needs.

  • jade

    i’m just sending you warmth and wondering how you are. Drive by hugs. :)



  • 1MasterK

    Just checking in. I hope Kaya and her master are well. I love this blog.

  • Blanca

    Kaya did say she would be scarce in the blog as they are moving in a bigger house this summer!


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