Photos- Take Two

(The post was broke. Now it ain’t. *beams*)

In the front jungle, about 2 hours ago. That’s probably the garden thief!

I don’t know why people have such a hard time hunting these things. Master practically walked right up to her to take this picture. She just stared at him like “yes? did you need something?”

The lake we were fishing on earlier this week. Skeery, huh!? The water is so clear, you can see the bottom up to probably four or five feet, then it gets dark. Dark water is super skeery.

It’s especially creepy when I can look down and see weeds waving a foot or two below the surface. They look too much like arms and if I stare too long then I figure a face is gonna pop out and then I would have to die.

I’ve been watching that OCD Project show, with the exposures and shit, and while I know my water phobia isn’t ocd, the anxiety seems similiar. Anyway, the whole exposure thing wherein you just have to do it until the anxiety goes away really works. Every time we’ve gone out on the water, I’ve been less and less anxious, less prone to freaking out when the boat tips. This time I even stepped from the dock to the boat without having a death grip on M’s hand. In fact, I wasn’t holding anything. I think a real “exposure” would be actually getting IN the water but the very thought of that makes me want to cry and makes my bladder cramp.

Maybe next year. It’s taken 6 years to get me to look over the side of the boat. Baby step to dunking. (circa What About Bob?).

Also! I still have bruises from when M beat on my tits at that play party. When was that, like 2 weeks ago?? Damn. That was some hard hitting. Prolly didn’t look like it from the peanut gallery though!