I’ve been getting my rocks off to Master’s quiet control lately. We’ve exchanged those big scenes where he hammered nails through my flesh for more subtle dominance.
And I LIKE it.
It’s not really anything new, maybe it’s just that I notice and focus on it more because none of the other stuff is distracting me from it. Or maybe I’m desperate.
I mean, I’ve turned the fact that he picked out my new eyeglass frames, a set that I wouldn’t have chosen myself, into new masturbatory material.
LOL. Desperate. *nods*
Here’s something completely weird. As you all know, there’s been a wonderful lack of vulgar-kaya photos here at Under His Hand lately. (You may send Thank You cards to the email address listed to the left …hehe) That’s not because he’s suddenly decided that I don’t have to post them anymore, it’s because we just aren’t playing like we used to.
Not because we’re done with it or anything, but because of a lack of time, energy, privacy, blah blah blah.
So, as is typical of The Way of Things™… the less you do, the less you want. As we’ve been doing way less, I really hardly think about it. I certainly don’t pine away for it and, to be honest, if he were to throw all the toys away right this very minute, I’d help him bag them up.
Well, except for the glass dildos. I really like those.
And my bullet vibe.
Maybe keep one set of clamps cuz sometimes I still clamp my own nipples when I masturbate and that’s really dang frustrating to not have the super-owie clamps when you’re in the mood for super-owie and all you can find is a stupid set of clothespins that you can’t even FEEL, ffs!
So there. Clovers, Bullet and Glass. That’s all I need.
And the whip.
But that’s all.
Well, okay, maybe I’d ask him to keep the toys but that’s not even pertinent to where I’m trying to go with this entry. So nevermind all of that.
My point is– we don’t post pictures of that nature hardly ever anymore and I don’t miss that. Like, at all.
I kept waiting and waiting for my stats to fall when we kind of moved away from the more in-your-face posts but they never did. So now, sometimes we’ll be doing something and I’ll think “man, this would make a great shot for the blog!” and then I’ll just dismiss it completely. So the weird thing is that you all still read and now I’m worried that if I do have to start posting pictures of my nasty hairy cunt (and it is. Oh-Em-Gee! is it ever), then you’ll all run screaming into the night never to return.
It’s like I’ve come full circle. I used to be all, if I don’t post pictures they won’t read! and now I’m all, if I post pictures, they won’t read! Hee.
I think if he ever does get back into taking pictures and posting them, I’ll probably be back at square one with the “but I don’t wannaaaaa!” Lucy Ricardo-wail.
I’m really good at that, btw. The wail. My grandma and I spent many many hours watching Lucy. You know what’s funny about it? There was a pretty darn strong D/s theme that ran through them shows and even way back then, it made me squirmy in my seat. Lucy even got turned over Ricky’s knee a time or two. I knew I was going to marry Ricky and then I was going to throw flour around the kitchen and stomp my feet until he spanked me back into obedience.
*nods*
I had a life plan.
Anyway.
Speaking of life plans. Here’s a doozy. Maybe y’all can help us figure this one out.
Master’s got a job promotion on the table right now.
Not here. Same company- different town.
The town we just moved from.
Oy.
So here’s the pros and cons list that I’ve got so far:
Pros:
1. It’s mostly a desk job which is safer and easier for him. Gets him out of the elements.
2. Pay raise.
3. Going to the store for groceries is not a major event, requiring that we pack emergency camping gear in the trunk.
4. The kids REALLY miss living there. They are doing fine here and have made a decent circle of friends- but given the choice to “go home”? They’d jump at it. They’d cry tears of happiness.
5. Closer to family, both mine and his.
6. Closer to friends that I really miss. (waves to Carrie! w00t!)
7. HUGE, huge advancement opportunities for him within the company.
8. The economy scares me bunches in this area.
9. Because we wouldn’t see each other all the time, we’ll play and fuck more when we do. That’s how it works! That’s how it’s always worked.
10. In a few years, we’d be sitting pretty. Fer realz.
Cons:
1. We really like this house. Omg. I kiss the walls I love it so much.
2. We really like this yard.
3. We LOVE the people we’ve met up here. We’ve made some terrific friends who are kinky and sexy and everything.
4. If he doesn’t take the offer, nothing changes with his current position. He’s not in danger of a layoff or a paycut or anything.
5. He likes his current position and the people he works with.
6. He’d lose his company vehicle.
7. Moving. Ugh.
8. The economy is bad everywhere.
9. We’d be living seperate during the week again, he’d come home on weekends (or I’d go there). It’s temporary- if 4 years can be considered temporary.
10. In a few years, we’ll have the isolation we’ve wanted.
I could probably add more but… pffft. I just go in circles anyway. Ultimately it’s his decision to make and I’ll support it, but even he’s on the fence.
He doesn’t want to move but he knows there are opportunities…
I, of course, want both. I want to pick up this house and our sexy kinky friends and move them back to Wisconsin with us.
What? It could happen. Dream big!
~cunt
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